Monday, November 19, 2007

They say; they love you!

They say; they are friends with you!

They say; they’ll always be there for you!

They say and they say!!

You hear them and expect, but when your expectations turn into mirage and you find yourself collapsing under loads of disappointments; you wonder!!

Is it you who ask for too much? Or is it them who do not perceive their words?
Or is talking simply cheap?!

Then you realize that you are all alone! and when serious situations accrue; it is only you and yourself!

So, live and let live!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Savage Nation BY Micheal Savage! I am sure that most if not all of us heard about this famous TV Show! well MUSLIMS, here it comes!
Oct 29, 2007 the followed was said!
“I’m not gonna put my wife in a hijab. And I’m not gonna put my daughter in a burqa. And I’m not gettin on my all-fours and praying to Mecca. And you could drop dead if you don’t like it. You can shove it up your pipe. I don’t wanna hear anymore about Islam. I don’t wanna hear one more word about Islam. Take your religion and shove it up your behind. I’m sick of you .”
What sane nation that worships the U.S. constitution, which is the greatest document of freedom ever written, would bring in people who worship a book that tells them the exact opposite. Make no mistake about it, the Quran is not a document of freedom. The Quran is a document of slavery and chattel. It teaches you that you are a slave."

Friday, June 01, 2007

"عظم الله أجرك يا ابنتي في المرحومة، رزقها الله فسيح جناته... كانت طيبة الله يرحمها"
أمد يداً باردة كالثلج.. أسمع ولا أفقه..
حروف بلا معنى.. جوفاء فارغة... كلمات لا أعرف متى تبدأ وأين تنتهي...
أكاد أصرخ.. من أنتم؟ وماذا تريدون؟؟ هل أنا أعرفكم؟؟ هل أنتم تعرفوني؟؟
في غرفة المنزل الكبيرة..تارة أظنني وحدي وتارة محاطة بهم.. هم؟؟ من هم؟؟ من يقولون أنهم حزينون لمصابي.. مفجوعون للألمي..
فأبحث في الزحام عن عين يسكنها حزني.. ترتعش لدموعي..
ويعود إلي نظري خائب الأمل.. مكسور الجناح..
أنت فقط من كنت تفهمين لغة صمتي.. أنت وحدك كنت تحسين حزني بدون كلمات..
وبدون وعي يبحث عنك وجعي بين الوجوه..
ويخيل إللي الوهم أني أراك.. جالسة في مكانك المفضل في طرف غرفة المنزل الكبيرة.. تنظرين اللى وعلى شفتيك نصف ابتسامة..
تلمع عيناي طرباٌ لرؤياك ويرقص قلبي على أنغام صوتك الرخيم..
"عظم الله أجرك يا ابنتي.. المرحومة الوالدة كان لها مكانة كبيرة في قلوبنا"
كلا.. ابتعدي.. أنت تحجبين عني رؤياها..
وتقع عيناي على مكانك المفضل في طرف غرفة المنزل الكبيرة..
وينفجر الدمع الصامت يحرق وجنتي انهماره...
وتخيم الوحدة على نفسي الوالهة إلى لقياك...
وهزني الواقع المرير بفقدانك..
ويقولون يلئم الجرح الزمان.. وأقول أشتاق إليك أكثر كل ما مر الزمان....

Doing everything you can to find a solution that could make everyone happy.

Putting yourself under enormous pressure so you may have your peace of mind.
Agreeing to the most ridicules matter, hoping it might fix something.

But unfortunately as time passes by it gets worse. And the worse it gets the more you feel the emptiness, pain and sorrow.

Moreover, people believe you are weak and easy to crush so they keep pushing and pushing till you reach the edge.

And once you are there, you get to the point of no return and you lose faith; give up in it all.

Walk away from everyone and everything, leave behind an entire life!

You could lose everything but win yourself! Or
you could simply lose it all!

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

“The isolation of autism need not be a negative trait… We don’t deserve to be condemned or laughed at, or made to fit into the plastic box of society’s correctness. We shouldn’t spend our lives trying to become someone else, someone acceptable… It is unfair to be continuously labeled, analyzed, picked to bits, dissected like a specimen, peered at with a large eye through a magnifying glass”
(O’Neill 1998, a person with Autism)

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Do not expect much! Live and laugh! Enjoy not having close ones while you can!

An advice I was told long time ago..

An advice I chose not to follow, not to listen to! Till it huts me!

That the pain comes from those whom you least expected! The very close ones!

When one of us choose to have a close relationship with someone weather it’s love, friendship or even a close relative.. we tend to give!

Unfortunately, we also tend to take! Suddenly when we are ignored, neglected and not cared for; we crash!

None of us is immune as long as we expose ourselves to others! Others who have the upper hand to hurt us!

Some get up stronger while some lose faith, trust and never fall again!

Be there for me or do not!
Realize how important I am in your life or not!

I will live!! Live.. with or without the loved ones! Live and try to laugh!

Friday, April 06, 2007

A conversation between (A) and (B)…

A: can you believe that? They are taking everyone’s laptops away from them, not only us!

B: you are joking, right?

A: no I am not!! Some British people said they have not seen their laptops in a year now!

B: but I thought we are the hated nation!!

A: obviously everyone now is being observed!!

B: these people are really not feeling secure at all now, are they?

A: tell me about it! LOL!!

B: but what if the laptop is brand new, you know no programmes in it, no nothing!

A: it doesn’t matter, they’ll still confiscate it!

B: on what bases?

A: on the bases, they can!

B: I simply won’t give it to them!

A: then simply you will be taken into jail.

B: they cannot do that.

A: yes dear, they can.

B: but that’s not fair.

A: honey, we are talking power here not fairness! But you know some business man took it to court, they took his laptop and never returned it to him.

B: are you telling me they don’t give you a recede for it!

A: seriously! are you living in this world!? You have to trust the authority! LOL!!

B: bloody thieves!

A: watch your mouth or you would go to jail for insulting an officer.

B: they can burn in hell; I won’t give my laptop to anyone.

A: now you are already in jail for obstruction of the justice. LOL

B: ******----------------------------------------------

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

To whom I adore..

Sitting on her rocking chair looking at no where, when her five year old girl approaches her and asks innocently “mom, why did my grandfather hit you?!”
Forcing a smile on her tired face “honey, your grandfather and I were just joking around, he wasn’t hitting me”
“But mom, your eyes and cheeks are blue”
Trying to control a tear “dear, this is a medicine mom is using and will go away soon”
“Ok” she replied and went playing with her toys.
Watching her little one walking away, an emptiness grew inside her..
Touching her painless body or is it aching too much that she cannot feel it anymore..
She remembers nothing but the humiliating scene, the kicking, the punching, the throwing.
He almost killed her and she would die happily.
Although something inside her did not allow it, a feeling or perhaps a voice screamed “defend yourself, damn it, hit back”
And so she did, she hit so hard that his enormous body stopped!!
Her body took over and her mind was watching, she hit once, twice, three times and he freeze!! She could not stop and he could not move!!
Back to her memory, all the blames from everyone who heard or saw!
Your father, how dare you!! What kind of a girl hits her own dad!!
She replied with silence!


Monday, January 01, 2007

Hands on experience of dealing with the most sensitive cases I believe exist!!

Tired minds!! Bored faces!! Heavy bodies, being dragged everyday to work emotionless, feeling less..
Not one day passes without someone being absent or late!
Not one day passes without seeing tow or three of these people doing their job with
the most careless manners that could ever exist!!
Being in many different felids before; I had these expectations that this particular one should have (Cream da la Cream!!) out of all!!
The best educators, the best methods, the best techniques, the best of the best in all aspects..
Unfortunately, it turns out not to be different than teaching a regular subject, even worse!

Here is my story!!

It was a whole month, My very first knowledge about children with special needs.. My very first work experience..
The very first morning I walked in filled with high hopes, thinking I would be dealing with the best human beings that devoted their efforts, lives to make it easier for these kids to manage what we call (as close as possible to normal life!!)
Here it comes!!! Surprise surprise!! Out of 6 teachers ONLY two were willing to give!!
I spent a lot of times in each class try to absorb as many information as I can, sadly I got none but the two who were actually working!!
The questions I asked were answered with (do not worry about it, these kids are hopeless and they shouldn't be trained) or something like (what a waist of time dealing with these children because it does not matter how hard you work, you just get no results) and more of the same meaningless rubbish!

After a whole month, 80 hours of working with these people- so called teachers!! I found out that it is not about what you are doing; it is about who is doing it!! It does not matter what you are involved in as long as you are honest and serious about it!!
The minute you put your heart into something, you'll reach your best achievement…