I was wondering in Riyadh’s Streets around half past 11 expecting to see something that implies the NEW YEAR. Anything that tells me: hey look at this gathering .. or look at that crowed :(
And here it comes. Applebee’s opened!!! Finally after waiting that long!!!
Very confident walking towards it wanting to have NEW YEAR dinner and guess what!!!!!
MEN ONLY!!!!!! For two freaking weeks!!!!
I walked back to the car speechless!!!
So here I am eating baby carrots and writing in my blog, pretty exciting eh!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

Episode one: how easier it is to be a MALE!!!!

Jobs.. Jobs.. Jobs..
It does not matter weather you serve the net, read newspapers, make phone calls. It is so freaking hard to find a decent job that it suitable for you time and money wise!!
It seems that whatever out there is either too cheap or too tiring..
work for 5 hours a day and you get scratch and with it having to pay for the driver who of course going to be more expensive when you get him with his car, which most of the people who do not have privet drivers do!!!
(a hint!!!)
work for 10 hours to make real money and the hell with your house, your kids if you are a mother and your scoial life!!!
and guess what!!! it would be much easier if you are a MALE!!!!

ok.. i have this friend who always says bad things about the blog!!! what a waste of time it is!!
why are you doing it?!
some people lost their jobs over the blog!!!
and she literally SAID
(this world is not a safe place for "nice" girlz like you)
can you believe it!!! I do not know what is so bad about having a blog!!!!
DO YOU?@@

"He's got so much inside him. He really does. I just wish he wouldn't tell me to shut up all the time." Yeah, that's a problem. Try not to ignore it. I know "he's got so many other great qualities." That's why you fell in love with him in the first place. I know you wouldn't fall in love with an asshole. But here's the trick: Forget about him and his good qualities. Even foregt about his bad ones. Forget about all his excuses and what he promises. Ask yourself one question only: Is he making you HAPPY? People are complicated. they are a mixed bag of lovable and dysfunctional qualities. That's why they are so darn confusing. That's why trying to figure them out is a waste of time. Is he making you happy? I don't mean some of the time, on rare occasions, not that often, "but the good still outweighs the bad." Does he make it clear in his actions every day that your happiness is important to him? If the answer is no, cut him loose and go find a man with a higher "good count."

From "he's not that into you" by: Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo

I have a great birthday party tomorrow that I really want to go to.. and at the same time I have this stupid must duty party that I hate to go to..
Of course I have no choice but to go with the flow.. AGAIN!!!
I am not asking for a sulotion here cause I know there is none.. I am simply trying to let it out maybe and only maybe I will get the best out of it...
I do not want to go expecting the worse just because I do not like the poeple, the place or the activity..
I want to go having a good spirit although I know how hard is it to do so :-(

being sick sucks..
going to a party you do not want to go to and you are doing it because it is a must sucks..
calling people you do not want to call and you have to sucks..
taking the train in this country sucks..
having to cover your face beacuse of certain people although you do not usually do it sucks..
people looking at you like an alien sucks..
being different in this city sucks..
basiclly, everything sucks...

The word fresh strart amuses me. and I always wounder who is actually willing to forget, forgive and start again?!!
In my opinion 10% of the society if not less.. and NO.. trust me.. I am not exaggerating.
Most of the people around us carry
the hatred in their hearts, never able to let go.
Therefore, it grows more everyday and cause themselves and others pain and sorrow.
they fill their whole surrounding with BLACK... BLACK thoughts, BLACK dreams, BLACK talk.. BLACK...... BLACK.......
and it keeps on repeating in
their heads and shows in their acts until the day come when
they found out that they have lost it all!!

When a hard decision has to be made or at least when you think so, what would you do?
I ask myself several times if I should walk away, leave everything behind and start all over again..
Would life let me, would I be given this little right!!
How hard is it to turn the page?! tell me.....
would you actually help me to get over you or would you put hundreds if not thousands of obstacles in my path....
Would you do wahtever it takes to prevents me from going on!!
Or do I have to be with you in order to deserve a life!!!

Our eyes met, and a tingle went through
my body.
I did not know what to say or how to feel.
He talked and I could hear nothing, understood nothing but a whisper that touched my ear like a breeze of air.
The sound of his breath took mine away, and my hand felt wram when he squeezed it in his glasp.
All of the sudden I wondered is he real or am I making him up? creating him in such a way that allowes no rejection.
Touch me more, force me to feel your strength!!
Make me realize the real you!!
Compel me!!
OR just wake me up!!!

Air Supply

Making love out of nothing at all

I know just how to whisper,

And I know just how to cry;

I know just where to find the answers;

And I know just how to lie.

I know just how to fake it,

And I know just how to scheme;

I know just when to face the truth,

And then I know just when to dream.

And I know just where to touch you,

And I know just what to prove;

I know when to pull you closer,

And I know when to let you loose.

And I know the night is fading,

And I know that time’s gonna fly;

And I’m never gonna tell you everythingI’ve got to tell you,

But I know I’ve got to give it a try.

And I know the roads to riches,

And I know the ways to fame;

I know all the rules And then I know how to break ’em And I always know the name of the game.

But I don’t know how to leave you,

And I’ll never let you fall;

And I don’t know how you do it,

Making love out of nothing at all

Every time I see you all the rays of the sun Are streaming through the waves in your hair;

And every star in the sky is taking aim At your eyes like a spotlight,

The beating of my heart is a drum,

and it’s lost And it’s looking for a rhythm like you.

You can take the darkness from the pit of the night And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright.

I’ve got to follow it, ’cause everything I know, well it’s nothing till I give it to you.

I can make the run or stumble,

I can make the final block;

And I can make every tackle, at the sound of the whistle,

I can make all the stadiums rock.

I can make tonight forever,Or I can make it disappear by the dawn;

And I can make you every promise that has ever been made,

And I can make all your demons be gone.

But I’m never gonna make it without you,

Do you really want to see me crawl?

And I’m never gonna make it like you do,

Making love out of nothing at all

here I am reading all about it, listenning to news, hearing the gosipp.
everyone including us is criticising the land but how about the people!!!
people who are making it so unbearable..
and the funny part is that they would do everything they wish for if no one knows them but here at home they have compeletly different personality!!
if you are here cover your face, dont speak loud NEVER expresse your self, LIE, PRETEND
whenever you leave this place.. drink, dance, walk half naked...
The minute we stopped fearing God and start fearing people is the minute our lives got so screwed.

10 wishes!!!!! wow!! are you kidding me??!!
i would be over the moon if I could get 3 done and believe it or not they are very regular normal ones.
First... do my postgraduate in the field i dream of and from a respectable University
Second... have a real job with a real salary that does not keep me out side the house for 10 hourse
Third... I have some real problems family wise and I would love to get rid of them, the problems not the family!!!
Here are part of what you asked for but seriuosly who does not want a perfect life!!!?