It is going to be O.K.!!

Since I only have my thesis left, I do not have to go to university everyday! which is good, I am finally done with midterms, finals and heavy assignments.
Lucky me, eh! I mean not like thesis is not a lot of work to do but a better situation; in my point of view at least!
So, living between papers and books kinda made me forget about a silly little detail.
Transportations!
But wait, why is this suppose to be a problem! Although I have my licenses, women cannot drive.. that is O.K.!
I live only two minutes away from the bridge and the car is standing under the house cold, dead.. waiting for the switch to go but no big deal... that is O.K.!
I can always take a car across the bridge since it is only about 25KM, I mean that what all these transportations companies are here for, taking advantages of people who do not have drivers.. but that is also O.K.!
Very simple, pick up the phone and call and you will have a driver in a blink of an eye.. see.. it is going to be O.K.!
Yea..
Hello..
I need a car please..
Yes, tomorrow...
Great..
How much..
………………………………..
500 S.R. per trip!!!!! ONLY!!
SEE..I told you it is going to be O.K.!!!!!!

I was told... (Just promise me that we would never become politely formal, boring, very civilized strangers)

well, you have my word!!

They say; they love you!

They say; they are friends with you!

They say; they’ll always be there for you!

They say and they say!!

You hear them and expect, but when your expectations turn into mirage and you find yourself collapsing under loads of disappointments; you wonder!!

Is it you who ask for too much? Or is it them who do not perceive their words?
Or is talking simply cheap?!

Then you realize that you are all alone! and when serious situations accrue; it is only you and yourself!

So, live and let live!

Savage Nation BY Micheal Savage! I am sure that most if not all of us heard about this famous TV Show! well MUSLIMS, here it comes!
Oct 29, 2007 the followed was said!
“I’m not gonna put my wife in a hijab. And I’m not gonna put my daughter in a burqa. And I’m not gettin on my all-fours and praying to Mecca. And you could drop dead if you don’t like it. You can shove it up your pipe. I don’t wanna hear anymore about Islam. I don’t wanna hear one more word about Islam. Take your religion and shove it up your behind. I’m sick of you .”
MORE IS COMING
What sane nation that worships the U.S. constitution, which is the greatest document of freedom ever written, would bring in people who worship a book that tells them the exact opposite. Make no mistake about it, the Quran is not a document of freedom. The Quran is a document of slavery and chattel. It teaches you that you are a slave."
http://www.cair.com/audio/savage_102907.asp
U CAN HEAR IT YOURSELF!!!

"عظم الله أجرك يا ابنتي في المرحومة، رزقها الله فسيح جناته... كانت طيبة الله يرحمها"
أمد يداً باردة كالثلج.. أسمع ولا أفقه..
حروف بلا معنى.. جوفاء فارغة... كلمات لا أعرف متى تبدأ وأين تنتهي...
أكاد أصرخ.. من أنتم؟ وماذا تريدون؟؟ هل أنا أعرفكم؟؟ هل أنتم تعرفوني؟؟
في غرفة المنزل الكبيرة..تارة أظنني وحدي وتارة محاطة بهم.. هم؟؟ من هم؟؟ من يقولون أنهم حزينون لمصابي.. مفجوعون للألمي..
فأبحث في الزحام عن عين يسكنها حزني.. ترتعش لدموعي..
ويعود إلي نظري خائب الأمل.. مكسور الجناح..
أنت فقط من كنت تفهمين لغة صمتي.. أنت وحدك كنت تحسين حزني بدون كلمات..
وبدون وعي يبحث عنك وجعي بين الوجوه..
ويخيل إللي الوهم أني أراك.. جالسة في مكانك المفضل في طرف غرفة المنزل الكبيرة.. تنظرين اللى وعلى شفتيك نصف ابتسامة..
تلمع عيناي طرباٌ لرؤياك ويرقص قلبي على أنغام صوتك الرخيم..
"عظم الله أجرك يا ابنتي.. المرحومة الوالدة كان لها مكانة كبيرة في قلوبنا"
كلا.. ابتعدي.. أنت تحجبين عني رؤياها..
وتقع عيناي على مكانك المفضل في طرف غرفة المنزل الكبيرة..
وينفجر الدمع الصامت يحرق وجنتي انهماره...
وتخيم الوحدة على نفسي الوالهة إلى لقياك...
وهزني الواقع المرير بفقدانك..
ويقولون يلئم الجرح الزمان.. وأقول أشتاق إليك أكثر كل ما مر الزمان....

Doing everything you can to find a solution that could make everyone happy.

Putting yourself under enormous pressure so you may have your peace of mind.
Agreeing to the most ridicules matter, hoping it might fix something.

But unfortunately as time passes by it gets worse. And the worse it gets the more you feel the emptiness, pain and sorrow.

Moreover, people believe you are weak and easy to crush so they keep pushing and pushing till you reach the edge.

And once you are there, you get to the point of no return and you lose faith; give up in it all.

Walk away from everyone and everything, leave behind an entire life!

You could lose everything but win yourself! Or you could simply lose it all!

“The isolation of autism need not be a negative trait… We don’t deserve to be condemned or laughed at, or made to fit into the plastic box of society’s correctness. We shouldn’t spend our lives trying to become someone else, someone acceptable… It is unfair to be continuously labeled, analyzed, picked to bits, dissected like a specimen, peered at with a large eye through a magnifying glass”
(O’Neill 1998, a person with Autism)

Do not expect much! Live and laugh! Enjoy not having close ones while you can!


An advice I was told long time ago..

An advice I chose not to follow, not to listen to! Till it huts me!

That the pain comes from those whom you least expected! The very close ones!

When one of us choose to have a close relationship with someone weather it’s love, friendship or even a close relative.. we tend to give!

Unfortunately, we also tend to take! Suddenly when we are ignored, neglected and not cared for; we crash!

None of us is immune as long as we expose ourselves to others! Others who have the upper hand to hurt us!

Some get up stronger while some lose faith, trust and never fall again!

Be there for me or do not!
Realize how important I am in your life or not!

I will live!! Live.. with or without the loved ones! Live and try to laugh!